Sorrows

My name is Mercedes de Morcef. I am reluctantly married to my cousin. He loved me once but I am no longer sure he does. I married him after finding out my one and only love, Edmond Dantes, had died in the prison Chateau d'If. He was accused of treason and conspiracy against the king. Obviously the royalists were quite offended. I, however, am still in total and complete love with him. Alas nothing can be done. I have one son named Albert. Because of how unsupportive my husband is, I raise him on my own. I've raised him to respect his elders and choose his friends wisely. It's hard feeling alone. I have no one to talk to about my feelings or what to do with them. Our marriage is covering up scandals that shouldn't be released. Even our friends have 'affairs' they would like to keep quiet. But no one ever does anything about the matters. I believe everyone is scared of the consequences. I know I would be. I wish this wasn't complicated. It's even harder to bear with no one to talk to. I feel like there is a part of me that still believes Edmond, dearest Edmond, is still alive.